sorie dorie strawberrie!

i got seamanship course last diz 3 daes...
den on mon i go collect unifrm...

MONDAY

wakey2...
fetch cadet frm skuul...
den go mit fieez n hanna...
den go hq...
half dying alreadie..
asked to cum back afta lunch..
wanna die sey..

okie..
den afta lunch,
cum back...
jin feng kena kick out,
den alfian dun wanna go...
feel lyke dying alreadie...
den no.3 shoe no stock..
den no.2 cannot fit...
still,
nid to rush n alter skirt 2 seamansehip course...

close topic...

i always stick wid da CNB kids...
dey r
TASHRIQ
FAIRUZ
FIEZ
FARHANA

tash,fiez n hana is my batch...
fairuz is a year older...
den he is da serious type of guy lah..
dun smile often one...
den i sae i'll make him smile more than anitin..
it was a challenge...


TUESDAE

mit all at mrt at 6...
den mr.fairuz cum late..
all happie2 coz new rnk..
go to course..
da teacher officer all picnic in the lecture rm..
we decided to follow dier example..
haha...
den i make jokes lyke norm...
den he keep smilling and i rallie lyke it wen he smile..
he looks better!
den go home...

WEDNESDAE

mit at 630 todae...
den go...
behave very well coz my ear was plugged in...
haha..
den reach dere verie happie..
noe y?
upperdeck was taechin us dat dae!
haha..
my specialist seamanship course inst..
keke...
as long as becum astomer
quick becum cute...
funny lah..
wen ever he sae upper deck,
we all at da back laugh...
lyke idiots siah...
den i disturbed fairuz,
make him smile..
den i sae,
U SMILE MORE HENSEM WAD?
den he blush!
den he stopped smillin..
i sae smile lah..
den he sae
SMILE ALOT2 LATER PPL TINK I CRAZY..
den i sae
SOO U SAEIN IM CRAZY IZIT?
den he smile..
hehe...

THURSDAY

we mit at 6+...
den go..
he smiled most of da tyme...
den in navigation class he sit ryte infront of me...
i found an eraser and broke it..
i threw small pieces at him...
den he turn...
i sae,
I DISTURB U COZ U NOT INVOLVED IN OUR CONVO...
den he jus turn n smile lah...
den i sae,
I DISTURB U K?
he sae
k...
haha...
den i disturb lah..
verie funnie lah dat dae...

todae

morn i met wit hamsey n darren..
teach dem do a dae of camp activity..
n also how to do proposal..
den met fiez n hana go HQ..
want to change shoe,
den sae still no stock...
i got my no.2 alradie!
woo!!
den mit da rest go beach rd...
as usual disturb him..
den he sae y disturb me?
i sae u sign contract for 2 years to disturb him..
den he sae where got??
dat for yesterdae onlie..
den afta dat,
i ask...
can i disturb u always?
he sae sure..
den we all laugh...
fun lah juz now...
lazie to xplain in dtail..

klah..
gud nyte ppl...

whoa!

werking liao!
hahaha...
soo fun lah..
but still..
feel very crappy...
sumtymes here..
sumtymes dere..
not permanent lah..
must rmbr diz..
rmbr dat..
haiyo...
leceh ler...

yeah2...
goin for CLT briefing diz sat..
can't wait!
wuhoo!
haha..
goin collect kit sumore...
soo happie!
life long dream goin to be realize..
i hope my gurl n guyz gonna be dere...
if not 4 me aso,
at least 4 alfian n jin feng...
haiz...
i reallie hope sumone wud be dere to put on my rank 4 me..
i haf diz fear of noone dere..
soo sad..
my happiest dae of my life in sadnest...
hmm..

u noe wad?
i haf diz creepy feelin dat,
im gonna mit hym one dae....
i hope i can at least see him...
i dun care...
in da arms of anoder gurl aso i dun mind...
as long as i see him,
n
i noe dat he is well,
i'm happie...
reallie2 happy...
i told muna,
i want hym back,
but den...
im soooo angry..
haish...

juz now aite,
werk wid muna...
den go playgrnd n play...
haha..
play3...
den go home...

fun siah....
tomolo is 12nn to 10pm!
fuyoo!!
banyak duit oooo!!!!!!!
hehe..
lame lah ain...

keke...
klah..
wanna retire....
tired lyke f**k!
=D

-AiN-

go zoo soo fun siah..
dunno itz gonna be dat fun..
hahaha...

go see diz..
see dat...
my mee goreng almost half inside alfian beg...
kekeke...
funnie dae though...
missing him all da way..
wondered wen he gonna msg me in da whole dae..

nemind lah if he alreadie has sum1 new...
i dun gif a fuck animore..
like how he doesnt give a fuck to me now...
biaserlah..
kentang goreng..
kekeke...

goin for my interview tomolo..
wee!!!
can't wait..
keke...

IM GONNA A CLT!!!
i got my selection letter..
soooooo HAPPY!
jin feng n alfian goin!
fizah aso...
N
IM DA FERST AND LAST FEMALE CLT IN SMB!
hahahaha..
like how im da ferst n last mount phir gurl for SMB..
kekeke....

okielah...
tired..!

Noe wad?
Khatijah finnalie broke up wid a her guy whu is a
SLB!
Stupid Little Bastard - whu sound lyke a gurl...

khat was like saein she doesn't love hym..
soo i stepped in..
like always..
den i msg dat guy..
asked him if he wanna be my fwen..
den he saed okk...
and if i was singgle..
he asked if i was prettie..
i was like..
WDF?
den i sae yar2 n im single..

den he asked if i wanna be his gal..
i was luke.
IM GONNA KILL HIM..
over n over again..

den i asked hym..
i'll ans wen i hear yor voice..
den he sae he wanna kol tomolo..
den i sae im goin overseas tomolo..
den he kolled..
i thought it was his mum!

den he asked for da prsn whu msg hym..
den i saed wait uh..
den i asked hym if he new khat..
den he saed NO!
GOD!
wanna stranggle hym siah...
den i saed,
ouh,
u squirmy little bastard,
u wid my sis den u wanna be wid anoder gurl?
if u dare contact or disturb my sis again,
i swear i find u!
n from now on u got nutin to do wid her!
den i hung up...

i felt lyke killing jus now..
wid my own boy probs...
haish...
like wanna kill him sey...

den juz now dhayat n aqsaa play throw ball...
den dhayat throw high2,
kena my bird clock..
my sis scream at him..
den he cry..
den my sis cream ask him to shut up..
hahaha..
think wad..
da nnurse dun dare scold izit?
hahaha...

goin to da zoo!
tomolo wid
ALFIAN,HAKIM,IBU,AFIQ
too bad..
wanna ask sumone out..
sae see ferst..
den neva contact me..
soo read diz..
TOO BAD!

-AiN-

mornin wen to da gym...
den outside gym,
sae,
dun wan arh..
like very paiseh..
reach da counter den,
ehk money2 faster..
den we go insed..
exercise alot2 larh...

den go ViVo City again..
hehe..
eat den camwhoring..
fun siah..
i go home den stay at home...
lazie go clat..
hehe...

den maam cum..
pass me sum NCC stuff...
read lor..
den at nyte talk to my dear gurl till goin to 2...
wonder wad happen to farit..
hmm...
haha..
klah..
gtg..
tired arh...

at last all my papers are finished...
soo damn f**kin happie!
afta my paper...
i went home and quikcly change..
i go out n mit shida..
den we go efa hse..
walau..
if i neva swear dat i won't use silat to hurt oders...
i've already smack dat fuckin gurls face..
BTW,
if she surfaces diz up to anyone...
it means,
she is still trying to find faults..
being the cool-headed prsn i am..
i'll let her brew in her anger coz i juz won't care animore...
wadeva lah..
now on wid da storie...

den afta dat,
i met muna..
we go ViVo City meet rid n mas..
muna tell me mas quite dun lyke me coz of sumthin i did in da past...
den wen muna n rid ran off lyuke kids...
we were left to find dem..
as we were findin dem,
i talked to mas and seeked her forgiveness...
den,
i DROPPED her fone..
GAWD!
her face changed man..
she was on the verge of tears..
i scared already..
now confirm she won't forgive me..
den we all(mas,me,muna,rid),
go a a M1 shop
and i asked the prsn if they knew how to fix the cover..
den wen da cover fix back,
mas face light up like spotlight..
i hope she forgives me...

den we go orchard meet heedayah n iskandar...
den go walk2 like stupid idiot,
(part of muna slimmin prog for me)
den we fo to
Venue,
angah's work plce..
kewl man da place..
all exclusive thingy wit pig skins and all...
hahaha...
den go eat coz i damn hungry..
b4 dat,
i nid to pee..
den wen i pee,
got blood in my urine!
i paniced!
den i rmbr,
i haven drank alot dat dae..
den wen we eat,
i upsozed my drink n finished muna's drink as well..
den an hour later,
angan gave me 2 bucks to go buy drink at the side stall coz
i was thirsty again..
hahaha...
i drank 2 bottles of mineral water myself!
hahha...
den go home ride cab..
reach home quite late...
but very safe and sound...

wad da hell is goin on wid me?
ouh GAWD!!

i dunnoe lah..
mayb coz ending O's radie..
hehe...

shit lah...
i hate havin dat f**king dream over & over again...
is diz a punishment for me?
izit?
but juznow,
i had a nap...
my sweet izam was dere,
smilling...
he looked at me,
& we played da game we lyke to play...

he closed my eyes & asked,
whos here?
i open and saed,
haiqal?
den i laughed...
but dere he was...
he took my hand and kissed it..meltz*
haha..
i woke up all soo happy and light...
i saed to myself,
i'll neva be able to make dat dream real..
hmm...

i'm some1 suay...
soo suay dat i lost
2 guys ryte infront of my eyes...
1 is gone forever,
1 is a silent lover...
haish..
no comments ppl,
no comments...

i hope his offer is still open to me...
i really hope...
i'm following my heart..
yeah..
follow my heart...

=D
-AiN-