in da morn of 9 sept...

my heart raced...
im goin 2 perform..
afta a long damn tyme...
at my future work place...
haha..
i was at Yishun fire station..
we were invited to do a show...
now im bug..
yar...
big...
haha...
did wad we need to do..
when da extra part came my heart was racing lyke hell...
i was ryte in front of da guest of honour!!!!
haha...
broke da tile...
cut me sole..
lil cut..
but big pain...
den afta change go see hasif...
he go performance...
sat wit hym...
waitin in agony for da damn prize givin to finish..
by the tyme dey got all da stewpid kids to sit down,
i was alreadie late to go to HQ...
ok..
wit a heavy heart i walked to hasif n explained dat i needed to go...
i wanted to see hym but tyme restricted miie...
sob2...
F**K!!!!!
i saed sorie over n over..
i patted hyz shoulder n we shooked hands..
i wen off lookin at hyz face..
haiz...
if onlie he would noe wad was happenin inside miie...
haiz...
no use tellin hym..
i'll be rejected lyke always...
haha..
im always bastarded n rejected..
its my life..
can't do athing ryte...

den in da aftanoon...
met wit izzuddin at the swimming complex...
ask y look soo sad...
den he told miie dat Zulaikha scolded him..
pity him..
den wen reach HQ we waited for khabir n zulaikha...
wen dey arrived,
well zulaikha was damn angry wit din lor...
didn't tok..
haiz...
soo during wearin da harness,
i let zulaikha n sin alone..
i purposely neva help...
den dey tok n evritin wen fine...
haha..
den afta climbin to practice,
i got fallin practice..
haiz..
scared lyke hell aredie...
at da third floof i let go...
den in 1 second flat i was da ground...
bloodie hell de all..
pissed off sia...
but dey apologised n we all laughed it all out..
but seriously,
it was 1 second flat..
de spectators sae wen dey galanced away n looked back i was aredi on da ground...
haha..
mus haf been funnie..

at nyte...
da real thing...
wen i climb i suddenly becum scared...
scared of cockin up...
den i heard CLT hadi sae,
"now lane 2 will demonstrate a fallin drill"
at dat instance i shouted fallin n let go...
den i recovered n continued climbin...
fun ah..
den i wen to see da dinner..
to paisey to go near...
den a tragedie striked...
but not dere ah..
at aust..
my godsiz got into an aksident...
dat made miie cry bfore goin home..
i lied to da CLTs saein it was my home but i can't do a tin...
i was too sad...
haiz...
reached home at 12.15 am...
first tyme in my life siah...
cum back from skwel event dat late..
haha..
but did haf fun..
wit all da new fwens..
n a broken heart...
n a stressed person...
haha...